LIFESTYLE | Grace as a Path
I say this a lot.
Grace.
We need to pass grace.
But sometimes, I say it with pain in my heart.
If anything has taught me more about grace… it's becoming a parent.
I'm not sure that I genuinely understood forgiveness and its complete process until working through the parenting journey.
I still am.
It's hard.
Hard to see that there are things I will need to be forgiven for. I will need to create healing space in my child's life and understand that there is no end to that cycle of needing to create space for a person and the grace to exist in the air between us.
Grace is a path I am walking and stumbling in again and again.
Sometimes it's a beautiful journey, and other times it becomes dark and full of thorns.
I can feel weary in the journey of forgiveness.
Yet, the idea of turning back, of not continuing on and finding that next part of healing, albeit alluring, is not a place I want to go.
We get frozen in time without the path.
We need the path.
It's just… hard.
Painful and not always a fun feeling.
And sometimes, I want to stamp my foot and decide to stay where I am.
I don't need to go any further.
But then…
I am raising this little spirit and the path is for her to learn as much as I.
If I can't pass grace for the pain within myself and exist with it, I can't give grace for the pain within others.
It's hard to look at.
It's not fun.
Yet,
it's a path.
A journey.
And thus far, the path has provided me more grace, more healing and more compassion than not being on the path.