LIFESTYLE | Summer Vacation 2021 Reflections
White Point Beach Resort on a foggy morning.
To celebrate our 10th anniversary and to create memories, we spent the majority of a week at White Point Resort this summer. It was everything we needed and more.
The time as a couple to connect intentionally and romantically outside of the life we have been working hard for was healing and I am not unaware of what a huge privilege it is that we could set aside the time to make that happen.
It’s easy to think that we are capable of this endless wheel of meeting the needs of our jobs, our friends and family without those margin moments but it’s simply not true. If anything the pandemic has taught us, is that having ‘pause’ can create space for something altogether different.
Pause is scary.
Being alone, without the people, the hustle, the bustle is sometimes nerve wracking.
We have our lives so perfectly ordered to create the background noise just the way we like to hear it, but eventually that background noise becomes undelt with trauma, over worked, over wrought and simply a lack of peace soul with the way things are as they are.
This vacation felt like the rope I was so clearly trying to grasp and articulate.
I
CAN’T
DO
IT
ALL.
I
CAN’T
BE
THE
SOLUTION
TO
ANY
ONE
PERSONS
NEEDS.
I
WASN’T
MADE
TO
LIVE
OFF
OF
NOTHING
BUT
EXPECTATIONS
AND
SCHEDULES.
I
WAS
MADE
TO
FLY
AND
LAUGH.
*spoiler alert: this is no new news.
No one was made to fully fulfill another person.
We are individually born as whole and solo beings.
We can be blessings to each other.
We can be the refreshing rain on the soil of another spirit.
We cannot be the sun.
We cannot be expected to exist simply to glorify anything but the One who made us.
What does this mean?
It means we do our best to honour and work to hone the life we are called into.
If you are privileged enough to carve out time and space for you to exhale somewhere quiet, I hope you find yourself a little corner of a moment to sit and listen to the lifeline rope you are holding on to and listen to what it is saying.
These are the things we hear loud and clear, yet need the time to fully see what it is we have been aching over.