Second Trimester Report
Twenty-seven weeks pregnant, glass of milk in hand, savouring these moments that have accumulated over the past three or so months.
They were right when they said the second trimester brings a new sense of energy, glow, and renewed sense of body awareness. I am not sure if I have ever felt as sexy as I do now. Sure I can't fit into that dress I bought from New York. The one that hugged my frame and showed that I was indeed all woman. But this is something magical! This growing body of mine has taken on a life that has words to share, and adventures up her sleeve. There is a delicate but very notable change in my curves and I never knew one could stretch in this way. Stretch in all ways physical and all ways spiritual.
Pregnancy is a spiritual thing I have come to realize.
It is an ode to creation and all things that speak to something more. I have been digging for the more, and it has been refreshing and renewing.
She bumps and turns. She hiccups and kicks. She has felt the rumble of her cats purr above her while they sleep and she has learned that her mama is a reader and a singer.
My heart began to burn during these moments and I realized how much it truly does burn. A mama will burn for all things to procure a journey for a life. It's realizing the values and morals. The hopes and dreams. The way in which we crave to raise her. It brings a new sense of reason to the day to day. And we aren't scared.
We've been through fire and we came out refined. We'd do it again.
So all this talk about parenthood taking us out:
"You'll never have your body back."
"You'll never pee normal again."
"Save up on your sleep now, you won't get it back for a long time."
"Say goodbye to a social life."
I call those negative, destructive words and claims over our lives out. They have no place over us, and no claim on our hearts.
Because people trash real life as if it's a shame. They walk around wounded that life has seasons and responsibility. They miss the real life moments because they are too busy thinking they got tricked by a transition..
So those people who like to sarcastically add 'helpful' quips to a soon-to-be-mamas heart...they don't have it right. They have it all messed up and contaminated. Life is meant to be lived not everyday the same, but everyday anew. I won't trick myself into thinking that my physical, my mental, my emotional can maintain the same. I'll be renewing it again and again, because I want to enjoy this life and all it's seasons no matter the circumstance. No matter the convienence or inconvenience.
This has been magical.
These months of growth have been filled with glimmer and sprinkled with worry.
All the way it is supposed to be.
Because she is life, and life is full of all the moments.
Not just one.