UPDATE | Am Writing
I am coming into the realization that in order for me to focus on writing strong narratives and empowering scripts, means I have to humble the voice inside my own head, dream big and enjoy the journey.
I am never not talking to myself. I have an unending voice that rarely, if ever, quiets. I chalk it up to being trained in simultaneous and consecutive interpreting. Interpreters are taught to process all aspects of information, visual and audible in the moment it is being made, and also, retain that information for it's relevancy later within the same communication time frame.
I am highly aware of my own and others emotions, perspective, and insights. I am constantly struggling to let go of what I understood of others, myself and the world around me. I am quick to be weighed down by myself and others and I find being in settings where I am unable to take a break from people extremely exhausting on my body, mind and soul.
AS A WRITER
Embracing these sides of myself is what is going to push me forward into this next stage of my work. I need to protect my work hours. To follow my instinct on what will bring me focus. To let go of trying to be all things to all people. To have space enough to let my own personality fall to the floor as I write. To let the fears of what others think of my work / life choices be just background noise to my main thinking process.
AT THE END OF THE DAY
This is my life. My legacy. My Joy. Writing is my calling and if all I ever do is write scripts and have only a small audience for my work, than I believe I will have not only filled the calling, but will have lived a life that overflowed with joy for me and those who live with me.