Releasing Expectations & Rejecting Scarcity - byamygrace
expectation | ˌekˌspekˈtāSH(ə)n | noun a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future: reality had not lived up to expectations | there is the expectation that some individuals will do better in the program than others | he drilled his men in expectation of a Prussian advance. • a belief that someone will or should achieve something: students had high expectations for their future. • (expectations) archaic one's prospects of inheritance.
scarcity | ˈskersədē | noun (plural scarcities) the state of being scarce or in short supply; shortage: a time of scarcity | the growing scarcity of resources.Last Year I made an active decision to step back from my own perception of ‘expectations’.
A year ago
I began letting go of the expectations and uncovering the root of scarcity as a belief system. Be it perceived expectations by myself or real expectations from outside myself; I had been carrying a weight I identified would not allow me to grow further.
I have been actively letting go of:
Being the sole organizer and leader for family and friendships.
The belief system in the traditional path into media and creative writing is the only true path.
Our small family and personal life choices will match those we interact with.
The belief in exactly who would/will be in my corner when the chips were down, and real life was crashing in.
Our ability to enjoy ourselves is limited.
Certainty.
Since actively working daily on letting go of expectations from myself and society/others, I have realized that so much of my pain is self-induced and has also been permitted by me.
I am actively embracing:
Engaging in in-depth and connective family and friendships that go deep.
Sinking into a documentary journalism career that I love, am excellent at and continue to thrive and grow in.
Celebrating our unique choices and options as a small family to engage with each other and the world around us.
Enjoying deepening the small collective of friends, family and colleagues who continue to show up for me/us.
Identifying the trauma and roots of scarcity within my family and society.
Looking ahead to the future with curiosity and wonder rather than with fear and scarcity.
Releasing expectations and rejecting scarcity is not a practice I will be automatically able to step away from. This is a practice I will have to remain mindful of and continue the self-reflective work to find the roots of fear and continue pulling them out one at a time.
Onwards,