Earlier this year I found myself saying phrases like:
“Don’t get me wrong, if it sounds like I want _____ , I don’t actually want that.”
“I wouldn’t touch that with a 10 foot pole. I would need a lot of space from it in order to do it.”
On both accounts, I am already eating my words.
Living a life open to creative work is difficult as it is comical.
More often than not, the moment of revelation and ‘next right thing’, is right at the edge of resistance.
It’s that moment you look over the edge of a giant cliff you’ve never scaled down before and despite the beauty of the view below you laugh and say things like:
“Not in a million years!”
“As if!”
“Why would I want to do that?”
And then as you take one last look you start to ask more questions.
“Well… how would I do that anyway?”
“Why would I do it…if I did….why?”
And when the answers start coming easy and clear…that is when you know you just might need to eat your words on all accounts, pick up ‘desire’ and ‘courage’ and do the real heavy work of scaling down the edge of creative insanity.
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Reader,
I am merely at the point of preparing my gear to scale down this tall mountain of work… but when the starting gun goes…I will be beyond tickled and frigthened to show you just the edge of what it is I said I would NEVER do…that suddenly I am going to do.
Until then,