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Fragments | I Can't Breathe Under Here

We are all born into frameworks and ways of being.


It just so happened that mine was restricting not only my individuality, but the very breath inside me.

A suffocating weight layered in verses, unspoken rules, raised hands, altar calls, undiagnosed and overlooked mental illnesses, prayers and attendance expectations.

The ’90s evangelical purity culture gave me the rule book, the Bible gave me the expectations, and the family tree gave me the coping mechanisms.

A corset was made to keep one tight, upright and in place.

Until the moment one dared to loosen the strings and discovered just how restricted one was.

But breath has a way of breaking through.

In my memoir, I’m exploring how I found mine.

How I Write a Fragment

Contrary to popular belief, writing chronologically isn’t always the best way to tell a story.

I would argue it’s rarely the best way unless you are writing a history book or a systems manual of some kind. No one tells a story in order. Our memories and thoughts don’t work that way.

The same goes for the process of my fragments for my memoir.

1. I decide on the theme.

Before I sit down to write, I decide what I need to write next. This is generally what is pressing on my mind and is usually decided while I am showering the night before or the morning of.
*Showers and walks are where most of my clear thinking is found.

2. I make a list.

Once I have decided what I am about to write, I make a list of all of the possible scenes, thoughts, words, quotes and ideas this theme brings up. For example:
Birthdays
- homemade cake.
- Streamers
- Dad’s Disney Voices
- Video camera
- Elementary school friends

These prompts don’t need to mean anything to anyone else, but to me, they allow me to see visually in my mind a variety of scenes. Once I am satisfied with the list, I decide which is best to begin with. I return to the concept: “Come in late, and leave early.” This concept helps create momentum and urgency in my writing and often allows me to introduce an intense scene that I can enter late and then expand upon.

3. I sit down to write.

No later than the day after I write the list, do I sit down to write the fragment. It’s important to me that I feel the urgency to write the fragment, which is why I bounce around. There are weeks I do not want to write about heavier topics, and it is then that I turn to lighter, amusing themes. Either way, I never make a fragment list and leave it waiting. I make sure to write it as soon as possible.

4. Review and Expand.

After I have written all I can in that fragment, I re-read it and expand. Rarely does this happen on the day of. Most of the time, this is the following day to let my mind sit with the material I have created. As I re-read, I often find patches of writing that need more explanation, scenes that are missing thoughts or need thoughts to be re-ordered.

5. I pass to my partner.

The first person who reviews my writing is and has always been my partner. With a more technical but still artistic mind, he often catches things I do not and helps me tidy up the copy in a way that I intend it to be read. In all honesty, I cannot be relied upon to create the cleanest copy while also excavating my life for all of these fragments.


*He is also the first in line to support my work, thus it works well that he is the best first person to read what I have written.

6. I review and expand again.

Once he sends back his edits, questions, and suggestions, I re-read, edit, and expand where needed. By then, my first draft should be complete.

7. I submit to my mentor.

The final draft is submitted to my mentor for their edits, thoughts, comments, etc. It is here that I then take the first draft and create a second, hopefully cleaner copy, ready for an agent.