It's no secret I spend many a week night at my desk. I have forever been an 'early morning' or 'evening' creative. My thoughts are clearest after a workout or when the sun begins to set. It's the way I have always been. Naturally, as a writer, I capitalize on knowing this about myself.
Five years ago I began what I call "Write Nights". It started when I wrote my first play. "The Chronicles of the Dramatics Society". I knew I wanted to pursue the project and so I chose a few nights a week (At that specific time, I would go to 'Obladee' downtown) and write all evening. That process was magical to me and really helped me understand the process of writing which worked best for me.
My next project didn't get past the editing stage, but I began to enforce these "Write Nights" with any project onward that I would work on.
Write Nights can start as early as 5pm but no later than 7:30pm and always end no earlier than 10pm. If I am truly on a roll it edges close to 11pm. But so often I find that even if I am on a roll I want to end on a high note and feel that creative surge in my veins when I leave the desk.
They also always must consist of a beverage even if only water, but I adore it when wine or coffee is a possibility. I light my 'writing candle' during the times I write and use a string of battery operated string lights from time to time.
The sound track is essential. Generally, the music I play must be in theme of my projects. Currently that would mean a '1920s-1940s' Jazz playlist or a 'femme fatale' playlist.
Write Nights are my version of creative bliss and I however one finds their creative bliss / time, always elaborate on it and make it as alluring for your spirit as possible.
From the best little nook along the Bedford Waterfront.
This weekend didn't start the way I thought it would. I saw an expanse of good weather and I conjured up many different outdoor family activities. In the end, little Z came down with a bad cough and congestion, and we ended up pouring the majority of our Saturday into keeping her happy. Not as sick as she could have been, but definitely not the kind of sick we would want to expose to the wind and chilly air that has creeped into our little part of the world.
Instead of going for a family walk like I had imagined, I woke up Sunday morning and went on a solo walk.
It was crisp, sunny and fresh. Sometimes in those solo walks we find pieces of ourselves we forgot about. Just in the quiet of our own mind. I tend to listen to podcasts or music while I walk and even while I was listening to a podcast, I found that the space of being my own person out in nature was a refreshing experience.
Don't get me wrong. I walk in nature a lot. Just not often alone anymore.
Shared or solo, crisp autumn morning walks are a beautiful thing.
An alley way of stories of change to discover....
I was thrilled to be connected with Sarah Conn who is the co-creator and producer along with co-creator Allison O'Conner of 'Trophy'.
A beautiful installation pop up project that collaborates with others in the community to share stories of change.
Being a writer/performer, I jumped at the chance to experience this unique installation as a 'storyteller'. I asked a few close friends which of my life changing moments would translate well in a four minute telling and then I joined ranks with Sarah and Allison and the others for Nocturne Halifax 2017.
Sharing my story of change over and over again to different people in a small intimate setting, I found that I gained a deeper awareness of how we adjust our stories along with their intentions to match our audience. This is a simple concept for many writers and performers but so often forgotten the fray of our making and formulating of the work.
I found I also realized how blessed I was to have had that specific experience that I so often take for granted. I was changed in that moment again and again, simply by the retelling. Which is why storytellers do what they do, isn't it? We want to relive that experience for ourselves, for others and for those that deeply need to hear it.
Trophy gave me, as a storyteller, a deeper connection with my audience and I am so thankful for Sarah and Allison who have been touring this piece. It truly is a moving experience for both teller and listener.
The tent where I shared my story of a 'Cuban Taxi driver who changed my life with three words: 'I am Happy'.
From top centre - clockwise: Hat | Carters, watering can & tools | Indigo, Bunny Skip Hop Backpack | Indigo, Heart swimsuit | Joe Fresh, Canada Outfit | Joe Fresh, Heart Pants | Children's Place, Sandles | Joe Fresh, Lace Shoes | Zara, Jean Shorts | The Gap, Lace Top | Korea, Green Sunglasses | Carters, Blue & White Flower Romper | Joe Fresh, 4 Calico Critters | The Bay, Canvus bag | Chapters/Indigo, Pineapple Guy | Gift from Auntie Nicole, Potty Time Book | Indigo.
Summer is that time of year where you spend the least amount of time in any clothing that sticks to you. It also, for us, was potty training season and this meant that our little 'Z' spent most of her time pant-less. If we were home, she was usually just in a t-shirt or dress. (not pictured here are 3 dresses that she grew out of and we are not packing away.)
These are the items she spent the most time in this summer minus one dress that is pink, that is featured in her Spring Capsule of this year. Many of the items she had from last year and still fit.
My personal favourites are her new shoes from Zara which opened in Halifax recently, her backpack, and blue romper that I wish she had worn more (potty training & rompers don't go together.)
Motivation isn't always an easy element to find. In life, as emotional and dynamic human beings we are often affected by our atmospheres and circumstances. We can wake up feeling energized only to hours later feel the empowerment drain from our bodies and spirits.
Discipline hasn't always come easy for me, but I remember when I started to really understand it.
I was in highschool and something in me wanted to learn how to figure skate. I barely knew how to skate forwards let alone attempt a simple waltz jump. But there was something in that sport I loved. A combination of artistry, athleticism and determination.
Discipline.
To be an athlete you have to be disciplined. I put in the time of joining a class of 4-6 year olds, being the single sixteen-year-old amidst them, our helmets on and learning the simple basic elements of skating. I showed up at the rink during my free periods, after school and on weekends I started realizing that not only was I loosing weight, feeling fit, learning a skill I was aching to learn, I was also learning what it took to be disciplined.
Elements of Discipline
Show Up
When you have a dream, goal, vision, desire, the first step is showing up. That is LITERALLY 50% of the battle. Then you do the work. It could be sucky ass work. It could be work that isn't showing any progress but it ALL counts.
Set the Atmosphere
Whatever it is you are trying to do, it can't be done well if the atmosphere goes against it. As a writer, for me, this looks like dressing the way I think my type of writer would dress, keeping a tidy and clean desk space so I can get to work at a moments inspiration, having a scented candle to light while I write, a fuzzy mat for my toes and fun mugs for my coffee. It means having a Living Room that is centred around stories, sharing and music, it means having healthy meals pre-made so I can think less and yet still be wooed by my palate. Think about what you are trying to do and all the elements that can come along side to support it.
Quality Over Quantity
We live in a world of excess so it's easy to get distracted with the events, requests, desires and life going on around you. The truth is, the work is always better when it is given quality attention. You can put time in that is empty of value because it had less than half your true attention. Reach for the quality. For me, that means three solid writing sessions a week. I get more done in those single three sessions than if I had five.
Tailor Life
So many expectations from others, yourself and circumstances. What is important is that any distractions and unnecessary elements to the work is stripped away. This means saying no. Saying no to things you might be relieved to say no to and saying no to things that might be hard to say no to.
Give Grace & Move On
& there are times when we are just completely overwhelmed, shocked or hindered because of how life treats us. We just can't do it today. That is okay. That is when we give ourselves Grace and keep going. Let yourself feel it, experience the grace and then move on and get back to it.
WOMAN WHO HAVE INSPIRED ME IN DISCIPLINE
Clockwise from centre: Summer Darling Magazine | Darling.com, Heart Locket Necklace | first gift from my boyfriend now husband over ten years ago, Brown Felt Hat | Indigo, Black romper | The Gap, Modern Lovers by Emma Straub | Indigo, Navy T-Shirt Dress | The Gap, A Giving Key | The Giving Keys, Green shorts | The Gap, Pink Graphic T | Modcloth.com, Starfish Keds | Soft Moc, Jean Shorts | Bluenotes, Sun Glasses | La Vie En Rose, Clenser, Origins Checks and Balances Frothy Facewash | Sephora, Coral & White Striped Silk Tank | Pseudio, Black silk tank top | H&M, Sports Bra | Aerie
This Summer I found myself desiring new pieces I didn't truly need but knowing that I would be best to focus on the ones that counted. Not pictured here are a few summer dresses that I wear often during the summer, various tanks that I at times wear underneath clothes, along with athletic wear. I own two 3/4 length yoga pants and 2 yoga tops that I wear for workouts and other various athletic activities.
The Navy T-Shirt dress was 100% the most used and best all around item I committed to adding to my wardrobe. I have 2 other Navy Dresses. One is formal, and the other is more silk and good for summer day outings, but both leave me feeling a bit more dressed up than if I am just kicking it during a weekend. So I found this T Shirt Dress at The Gap on sale and I LOVE it. Dressed up or down, this is a winner.
Also added was the green shorts which I needed badly. Since having a baby over two years ago I have only owned that one pair of jean shorts and this summer I found myself wanting to wear shorts more than dresses and needed a pair that would pair with more dressier shirts but wouldn't leave me feeling too formal. This pair is perfect with dressier tanks or shirts tucked half way in but also relaxed with a graphic T.
Lastly, of note, I had broken my heart locket last year that Jeremy gave me when we were teens and it was his first gift to me. I wore it 24/7 while he was away at sea over the past two years for a month at a time. One would think that it would have been a babies grabby hand that broke it, but it was me, leaning over a table, getting it caught in-between slats. I was a bit sad about that. Recently we got it fixed for our six year wedding anniversary. It's a simple and inexpensive piece but it means more than anything expensive.
Which goes to my last point: It always pays to put more towards a classic piece and less towards the trendy. The core base of my capsule wardrobe tends to be expensive items but those extra details are where I choose to find cheaper alternatives or wait for the right sale.
Want to see how my Summer Wardrobe has evolved?
I have finally come to some sort of comfort level with the pace of writing and seeing a project into it's fullness. The beginning of the Summer seemed to lag with work hours stolen, silent uncertainty and exploratory scene making.
And then, in an instant, in less than two months, a pilot episode has been written and is still being refined as the days pass. I walk along the water and ponder the characters and their place in the series and find a new path they have chosen in my mind. "What a surprise!" I inhale and exhale in a yoga pose and find that single solitary plot point that has ragged on me stick out like a sore thumb. "Clarity! "
I find that now the hurdle is not only making the adjustments to the pilot (which I actually find quite fun and exciting. Disovering story as it evolves itself) but also learning how to lay out an episodic series, story boarding, pitch writing, 'show bible' creating.
This is the hurdle. Learning and honing the pitch craft.
Thankfully I am not alone. Creative Partnering with Kirstin Howell has not only boosted the work but also given a good kick at any doubts I may feel as I move forward.
What I hope to find in this next leg of the journey is that there is joy and excitement to be found in this part of it as well.
My Baptism, I will never forget this. Lisa Francis Klassen & Paul Francis
The first day I attended Gateway Community Church, I was seventeen and raw. Raw from life, raw from brokenness and abandonment. I was raw from relationships failing me and raw from disappointment. The way I saw it, I had two choices. Loose my faith or seek out a deeper faith.
It was Palm Sunday. "This is it God. I am giving this one more try." I whispered to myself.
Paul Francis wasn't the type of pastor you stood in awe of, you stood away from or you had to use the title "Pastor" before his name. He was a man who had a calling to lead. He led by humbleness and for someone like me, who felt swallowed up by church 'pomp and circumstance' the simplicity of his delivery was a relief. I didn't have to be anyone but myself. He truly reflected the Fathers Love and I soaked in it and so after that first Sunday I kept coming back.
Paul and Kathy came alongside me in the roughest times of my life and even after they moved, I knew that I could struggle, reach, fail, and reach some more and still find the Fathers Love within them. This is rare.
This is the Legacy:
We are all human. We all will fail each other and that is the simplest truth that will either tear you open or heal you. For me, I have learned that it is the deepest honour to reach towards love and grace for and with each other. I have failed my mentors and my pastors who taught me to reach for that love first. I have been hurtful, rash and utterly wrecked with destruction.
BUT there is a redemption story that Paul taught. In the darkest of nights of the soul, in the depths of despair and utter confusion God and his Love is there for you. He is there and his love wants to surround you and make you whole again.
Paul , Kathy, Lisa & Joel, thank-you for this legacy.
As I let my heart break open for the grief to swell it, I keep hearing these words:
- King of My Heart 'John Mark McMillan & Sarah McMillian
Along with the benediction that I heard for most every Sunday when Paul was at church.
"Go from here with the assurance of the Fathers love, a love that is made certain and secure now and forever. Go from here empowered by the Holy Spirit into your homes, schools, work places... Go in peace, go in power, but don't go until after this song." - Paul Francis
Right after being baptized they sung over me, they prayed over me and this is the day that marks all the rest of my days.
I have known Christine almost my entire life and throughout that time I have been in consistent awe of her creativity, her individuality and her abundance of love. This woman has impacted my life in major ways and I credit her with passing on to me self-confidence, bravery, freedom to belt songs out because I have a voice and can use it, writing words on walls, and even just to let loose and think outside the box. Christine continues to dig deep and create along the way. I am THRILLED to share her words with you!
How would you describe yourself?
I would describe myself as classically edgy. I love wearing ultra short hairstyles, wearing chunky-bling jewelry and looking like no one else. I love tattoo's you can't see, and being the cool mom who writes notes in lunches everyday. I am lover, a supporter, a confrontation avoid-er, a survivor and a fighter.
What role does creativity play in your life?
It plays a HUGE role in my life and I credit my creativity with saving my life. I am able to think on my feet, I have a solution for everything. I've succeeded in my career for unique ideas and creativity. I am a super cool mom because I am creative, Best Halloween Costumes, homemade pencil cases, wicked teacher gifts, and tutus for every occasion fun lunches and Pinterest shaming birthday parties.
What are you currently working / focused on?
I am currently working on some birthday shirts, home reno's, and a matching dress for me and my daughter for an up coming wedding. I love to use water color at night to relax which watching TV. I just need to be doing something creative it is a great outlet especially for my mental health
What was the last book/movie/podcast etc. that left an impression on you?
'What the Health' on Netflix scared me and I didn't know what to buy in groceries for a week.
What advice would you give to other creatively driven people?
Creatively driven people need an outlet. I suffer with a Mental Health Issues, this is the first time I am admitting it publicly. I need creativity in my life to relax and center me. I get enjoyment and health from being creative. Pick up the brush, grab the pen, dust off the sewing machine just let your creative juices flow. You'll never be upset you did it.
Painted Lady Butterflies appeared on our patio the week Autumn arrived. They are spending every afternoon feeding on our flowers.
Hello Autumn!
Welcome in and sit with me a bit. Tell me what you have for me to learn and show me what I already know to be true.
Autumn is here. It's brisk air teases me daily. A bit of Summer and a bit of Autumn mixed together. I'd like to think this is the time of year that nature plays a song the same as Spring. It's a teasing and a tugging of the heart.
This Autumn in my life
- Exploring this whole 'Hygge' thing. (if you don't know this trend, look it up!)
- Continue embracing beverages of the season and maintaining water intake. (Hot chocolate, Spice teas, red wines)
- Add to the book stacks (reading under blankets)
- Light the candles and start pursing the pitches and the 'Show Bible' (television pitching)
- Host more.
- Eat like a queen.
- Autumn activities with the toddler.
FROM AN INSTAGRAM POST
I wanted to re-share this because I have found it come back to me again and again. As creators, as women, as humans, we need to honour each other. It isn't always easy, but the truth is, that is what gets us places. When we stop trying to tell each other what 'we think', and we listen. Truly listen. Wait for the other to ask for advice, thoughts, feedback before filling it in and listen to what they are saying. Truly listen. Not just their words, but their voice, their body langauge, their eyes.
"My first professional career taught me to be critical. To give feedback and put the integrity of the message before myself. At first glance, great. In real time, there was no honour of the person behind the work. No true belief that a person was putting forth the best of them self.
As a writer & as a performer it always amazes me how seeking out feedback, critique and growth from peers and mentors grows the work in major bounds by the mere honouring of each other.
When we posture ourselves to believe the best and to honour the spirit in front of us, we give opportunity for real growth. Not just in the work, but in the soul.
I have learned more in what it means to be humble and honouring in the past 4 years pursuing my craft as a writer/performer than as a graduate working in a "professional" career. .
I still have so much to learn, and I hope to be as honouring and real as the peers/mentors I have found along the way. "
It's no secret that I love seasons. That idea of a season changing and bringing something new. I love seeing what three months can bring and finding ways in which to celebrate them.
TO CELEBRATE:
We had a few friends in, ate a skillet of S'mores, BBQ sausages and other snacks. We caught up, shared laughs and walked down to the water to light some sparklers. It was simple really but in life, it's the simple things that count.
Celebrating summer is more than just a reason to have a party, it's a reason to reflect and look forward on what is to come.
Here's to you Summer and every little lesson you gave me.
In this video I share with my Best Friend how much I love her gift to me. The Darling Magazine continues to bless my life.
Character Development is what motivates me in my writing, reading and watching of film and television.
I am sure it has driven my close people a bit nuts to listen to me poke holes in plots as I watch/read them, and even more so when I see a character that doesn't hold up.
People are complex and layered. Showing that through the written and performance mediums is easier said then done and I will be the first to say that the art form of character development is a craft I am still learning.
Over the past few months I have been working alongside Kirstin Howell to develop strong female characters for a television series. I am consistently challenged by her edits to develop these women to be multi-dimentional.
As a society we like stereotypes because they are easier to understand and quick to put together. Thats the problem, people are not easy to understand and there are layers upon layers of life that create a person to be who they are and to do the things they do. No one is just one stereotype. We may be born to have certain personality traits and certain ways of doing life, but that doesn't mean we can't divert from that. In fact, more often than not, we do.
Through this process I am learning to challenge what I think of my characters and admit that as a writer I don't know everything that informs their decision yet and I may never will. Writers are not God, they are conduits for a story that the characters speak from. I think anyone who has written for the integrity of the story realizes that they are there to serve the characters and their story.
The writer serves the characters, the characters don't serve the writer.
The fun part of my work is that this all applies to real life. I can only assume that I will never know the whole of a person, but I can be present with them and with myself. I can allow myself to believe that we are more complex than an 'assumption'. Life isn't as simple as a statement or a stereotype. Life goes deep and we'd better be ready to get dirty in the process.
Strong Characters I Adore:
Jane Eyre - Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë
Christina Yang - Greys Anatomy by Shonda Rhymes
Aibileen Clark - The Help by Kathryn Stockett
Phillip Jennings - The Americans by Joe Weisberg
Sansa Stark - Game of Thrones by George R.R. Martin
Inhale. Exhale.
There is beauty in the breathing. In the being still and letting the heart do it's work.
Hearts. We all beat and ache. To live is to feel and to feel is to live.
I have often found that when I listen to my heart beating, I want to be in the open air. I want to feel the wind. And wind is like stringed instruments that match our beats. Calling us into something deeper.
In the past, when my heart ached in ways I couldn't fathom, I would drive to the ocean.
I would scream the guttural depths of myself into the air. I would lose my breath.
And now, as the aches come and go, I find I am left wanting to whisper.
The heavens can hear our ache before it has been uttered.
I trust that as we breathe that the Heart will do it's work.
I'll trust we'll thrive.
Inhale. Exhale.
In this video I dish on my t-shirt dress from The Gap Canada and getting my locket fixed.
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Enjoying the Public Gardens in Halifax N.S. - Captured by Nicole Payzant
Creating a balanced weekend has become my little piece of heaven in what can be stressful or busy seasons. The more busy I am, the more protective I am about how I spend my weekends. Down time is essential to pour out during the weeks into our jobs, our families, our friends and our passions.
Five strong elements to a successful weekend lifestyle.
1. Plan for the week to come.
I do this to stay sane and I preferably do most of it Friday night. It can be as simple or as complex as it needs to be. My personal week prep is somewhere in the middle. Figuring out the next weeks wants, needs, and musts as soon as possible leaves me free to enjoy my time over the weekend.
2. Quiet time.
Reading, napping, journaling. A bath. Anything quiet.
3. Quality time with family.
This can be complex for us, as we have a fair amount of family members who want to see our toddler on a regular basis. We do our best and try to share the time. The most complicated is during a holiday weekend or weekend of birthdays. For some reason our families all have birthdays in pairs. Our fathers share the same birthday week, Our mothers the same birthday month only a week after mothers day, both close cousins share the same birthday week, grandparents etc. It means that outside of the typical holiday weekends we spend 4 other weekends trying to split our time. Sometimes this means we don't see them on their birthdays because we have our own personal commitments. This is just how it is sometimes. Quality weekend visits are better than rushed ones.
4. A Seasonal Activity
Recently it has been the beach, and we recently went to the public gardens after our Saturday morning farmers market run. Other times its winter walks, skating, etc. Find a seasonal activity you love and incorporate it. Fresh air is always best.
5. Enjoy your person.
When you live with someone, especially when you live together with children it can be easy to let the busy week mean that you don't get that time to see each other outside of "Wow, that was a rough day." Generally speaking I mostly ache for those Saturday nights in, sipping wine and taking a bite out of food Jeremy made for us while we watch our favourite shows and talk in-between. It's our most bonding time and we often end up falling into some sort of laughter or revelation after our Saturday nights together.
A typical weekend for us
Friday Night : Prep for the week to come.
Saturday: Farmers market / chore morning, Quiet time, Seasonal activity, Quality time alone together.
Sunday: Church, Quiet time, Family time, Detox night / Dancing (blues dance).
Click the link for what I have been listening to this summer.
Less than a month left of summer!
Gillian has been a powerful presence in my life. Her integrity, her joy, her desire to go deep and her insatiable eye for beauty in nature and in fashion has a way of captivating anyone who knows her.
How would you describe yourself?
I would describe myself as a designer, a grower, a writer, a beauty seeker, and an adventurer.
What role does creativity play in your life?
Creativity gives me freedom and joy. It’s what brings me life. It gives a voice, a visual and a vessel to the things I feel led to communicate and share with others. I like to capture and create beauty and share it with others so that they might be inspired and reflexively be given the permission to pursue what is in their own hearts.
What are you currently working on?
I have come to realize I have a trio of creative outlets that are all supporting of one another to uphold my creative fulfillment. Fashion is a way for my creativity to express itself visually and sculpturally. I am currently working on a collection of women’s outerwear –coats specifically. Some are sculptural, others have clean lines. It’s been a lot of fun but a huge challenge as it’s the first time I am hoping to have the collection made into multiples to sell in the future. Fashion can be a very intimate art form as you are making something for someone to literally put on themselves to embody the art you have created. I want women to feel confident and inspired when they wear my designs.
I grow vegetable gardens, all through the year in the cold climate of Nova Scotia. Gardening has been my solace in times of creative blockage and self-doubt. Gardening gives me a peace that I do not get from my other work. In some ways it is a spiritual practice that teaches me to be joyful and thankful for the abundance in my life, and what I was able to co create with the earth! Last year I was harvesting cold tolerant lettuce varieties all winter long. These were grown underneath mini hoop tunnels that we built over my garden beds.
And finally in the last 3 years I have gotten into writing a lot. I write poetry, and I am looking to find an outlet to share it with others very soon. Writing is a way that I can communicate my ideas and feelings very directly and uninterrupted. It gives a voice to my creativity, and it also keeps mesane. With some of my other creative outlets that involve a much longer process to completion, there is not an immediate relief and encouragement that comes from the output of creative energy. For me, when it comes to writing, there is this immediate relief and satisfaction. I’ve come to realize I need this trio in order to feel positive and like there is a healthy flow and balance to my creative expression.
What was the last book/movie/podcast ect that left an impression on you?
The gifts of imperfections by Brene brown was the last book that left an impression on me. She researches shame and vulnerability, and how overcoming shame and living a life where we allow ourselves to live fully present and be vulnerable in relationships with others is what guides us toward living a more wholehearted life. What resonated with me most was how cultivating a sense of gratitude for the good things in our lives really positively shapes both our self-image and our relationships with others. Brene brown really outlined to me areas I could improve in to live a more healthy and positive creative life that is well balanced. She talks about cultivating authenticity, self-compassion, resilience, gratitude, faith, creativity, play, rest, meaningful work, and laughter. She talks about how cultivating these key positive traits and practices in our lives, help us to live in a way that engages with others from a place of worthiness.
What advice would you give to other creatively driven people?
Advice I would give to other creatively driven people would be that I’d like to tell them not to compare themselves, and their accomplishments to others but I know they still will, because in today’s world it’s difficult not to. However, it is just not a fair thing to put yourself through. It’s so easy to stack everybody else’s accomplishments and lives so high and measure yourself as falling so far behind. It is not an accurate representation of the truth. Everybody feels the same way at some point in terms of not feeling good about where they are at. Everybody has different opportunity’s and advantages or disadvantages that make it easier or harder to end up where they are, so it’s never fair to measure your life next to someone else’s when all the variables are completely different. Instead try to remind yourself of the progress you have made, even if your progress is slow, because sometimes slow is the only manageable pace for the season you are in. seasons of progress and productivity come and go. The kinder and more gracious you are with yourself, the more confident you will be in what you have to offer the world creatively. I have found that seasons of productivity will come a lot easier when you are loving and respecting your inner artist in all its goodness as well as shortcomings. Another piece of advice would be If you feel stuck in some way, sometimes finding another creative outlet can support and jumpstart the area you felt stuck in.